we all get tired
and our brains actually get full..i believe..and i just say this because i feel this way. like the lists of things to do to perpetuate our lives in a full manner seems endless. we could just exist but i guess everyone or at least close to everyone has an innate sense or drive to live and do something with themselves they can look back on one day and be ok with. ’ if your life is a movie don’t let it go straight to dvd’
but right now i’m tired,i’m tired and have minimal substance to show for it and its really making me miserable. tired is ok with me when things are accomplished but i don’t feel this way because of my shit perspective on life right now.i just want more energy and lifejuice but don’t know where to get it and even if there was a place i dont think i could afford it because i’m sure it’d have a pricetag.
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i just want the few things that always seem a little out of reach for me. peace of mind, strength and wisdom come to mind right now but soon as i walk around i’l find other things that i don’t feel worthy of but would really like…but who the fuck am i to expect!?!? why does anyone think they deserve anything!?!?!?!?
‘i don’t know how a man decides what’s right for his own life, its all a mystery’-The Flaming Lips
They were great at The Hordern the other week and i was truly happy while it was happening with the perfect company and amazing love in my life and it was a perfect,magic,incredibly good evening.
I miss that feeling and wish i could just make it happen in my room right now but i can’t because i’m alone and it seems to take two to create it.
